Bette

You and I Collide

2009-02-20T20:49:00.019-08:00

so here i am at like 3 in the morning and i'm still awake and all i can think about is you and me.
so how did we end up here?
was it because of a lack of communication/
because i got scared?
because you got scared?
no matter why the fact remains that this is where we are.
so what do we do now?

miles between us
so many reasons why i shouldn't but all i can do is miss you

and now i can admit that i am terrified
terrified of history repeating itself and terrified of the future

and at the end of the day none of that matters because i'm still in love with you

for whatever it's worth

Damien Watson<3

no eternity lyrics

2009-02-20T20:49:00.017-08:00

you never ment to hurt me
you never ment to make me cry
i couldn't stand the pain inside
you never want to let me die

i wish i could see your face again
i wish i could see your virgin smile
i couldn't take away your pain
i have to pay the price...

night is coming and there's nothing left to stay
nothing changes,everything has gone away
no eternity,no hope for me and you
we close our eyes and we're fading away

i never ment to hurt you
i never ment to make you cry
i couldn't stand the pain inside
i never want to let you die

i wish i could see your face again
i wish i could see your virgin smile
i couldn't take away your pain
i have to pay the price...

night is coming and there's nothing left to stay
nothing changes,everything has gone away
no eternity,no hope for me and you
we close our eyes and we're fading away

hold me in your arms for the last time
don't let me die tonight

Blutengel - No Eternity

2009-02-20T20:49:00.015-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmGZHA7MZTE

this is an amazing song . nuff said ..

this is just the way that it is now darling......
2009-02-20T20:49:00.013-08:00
My Chemical Romance

Where'd you go?
So never think I'd make you try to stay,
And maybe when we get there,
I'll think enough,
To find another way,

When after all this time,
Is you still around,
You're still the god falling nothing I have found,
So take your glass again,
And get out,
While you can,

Where'd you go?
And would you even turn to say,
I don't love you,
Like I did yesterday,

Sometimes I cry so hard for pleading,
So sick and tired all the mean less meaning,
But baby when they knock you down and out,
It's where you'll wanna stay,

And after all the blood that you still have,
Another time I was chancing it all around,
So fix your eyes and get up,
Baby, get up,
While you can,

Where'd you go?
And would you even turn to say,
I don't love you,
Like I did yesterday,

Where'd you go?
Would you have the guts to say,
I don't love you,
Like I loved you,
Yesterday,
I couldn't love you,
Like I loved you,
Yesterday,
I don't love you,
Like I loved you yesterday

just in case ppl care

2009-02-20T20:49:00.011-08:00

i am sick of people always having my name in their mouth and lying about me. do me a fucking favor... the next time you want to say something about me especially if it's not true go blow your fucking head off instead.

don't judge me. i don't judge you.

people make mistakes, they learn from these mistakes

and it's none of your damn business what those mistakes are.

and i am about to lose the one thing in llife that truly matters to me anymore because of people saying shit that isn't true. and i f that happens i would hate to be on the list of people that i don't like

in short grow up and stop acting like you're fucking 10.

i left high school so don't bring the fucking drama back into my life.

and by the way christmas sucks.

thank you for your time and have a nice day shopping at wal-mart :)

an unforgiving addiction(reap the benefits of the despicable seeds you have sown)

2009-02-20T20:49:00.009-08:00

This power is more than I can bear to understand

I have never seen this kind of control over me

My every thought is of darkness

My every dream is of you

i don't think you understand

I would pick up this dagger

And carve out my heart

Hand it to you gladly

For a drink from the soul of a damned one

Just to pay for one more kiss from your venomous accursed lips.

The way that I think of you every waking moment

Is showing me that my soul is no longer my own

You stole it away with that first terribly beautiful kiss

That gave me a taste of darkness I had never before known

and now I crave it like a sick addiction to the newest drug introduced into my system.

will you save me? Please? I know mercy isn't in your nature

but I hope that maybe something touched you to that night

I'm not used to being so weak

Someone having so much power over me

I wish that I could make you see what those few precious moments with you have done to me

I would spill every drop of blood to make you happy

Just so you would look at me with tenderness in your eyes

I've taken a walk on the stranger side of my heart since I met you

And found things there that should make me run

But instead I embrace these demons

Hold them close to me and try not to think of you

I can't die anymore this ecstasy of darkness has made me feel alive

I turn towards the shadows rather than walk in the light

But since meeting you I feel like it's right to turn my head and flee from grace

To be a fallen angel

Plummeting into an abyss of the sweetest sensation I have ever known.

The dark joy I find when I'm lying in your arms.

this poem was created for and dedicated to a man named

jody christopher mccartney. and i love this man dearly.

at one pint in time it was in the way that i wanted to spend the rest of my life

with him. this however has changed i now love him in the way that he is

the one person in my life that i am now and always will be extremely

grateful for meeting. he made me realize that i don't know who i am anymore.

and he started me on the journey of self awareness i am now experienceing

so i thank him from the bottom of my heart for showing me how to stop running

from myself and to be my own person.

depressing poem

2009-02-20T20:49:00.007-08:00

a lonely girl sits in the corner of the room
stares out the window and tries not to cry.

the people around her whisper and stare
but she holds her emotions inside.

Sweet Dreams of Suicides and Goodbyes

2009-02-20T20:49:00.005-08:00

I'm writing you this letter.

i hope it gets to you in time.

no one could ever do it better,

you know as well as i

that to be giving up is just to be giving into

the blackest desires of our minds

so kiss me goodbye, one last time. i'm going to sleep where i'll have sweet dreams of suicides and goodbyes.

Best Song!!!!!!

2009-02-20T20:49:00.003-08:00

Josh turner

"Angels Fall Sometimes"

My chances weren't good she was way out of my reach
How could she ever fall for some ol' boy like me
But here she lies asleep tonight in these arms of mine
And that goes to show angels fall sometimes

She's been here long enough to see that I'm no saint by now
Every mornin' I wake surprised to find her still around
The love that she give to me could be no truer sign
Every now and then angels fall sometimes

She brings pieces of heaven every day into my life
She's been my inspiration with her by my side
I'm not afraid to dream high

[Instrumental]

The love that she gives to me could be no truer sign
Every now and then angels fall sometimes
Yeah, I thank the Lord angels fall sometimes

song

2009-02-20T20:49:00.001-08:00

Empathy Bleeds:

V1:empathy bleeds don't ask me what i mean

empathy bleeds empathy screams

empathy needs to find some peace

Empathy cries i don't want to hear anymore lies

don't try to fake it you know you can't make it one more day alone

Chorus: Empathy bleeds all over me as i'm holding you and i silently scream and i don't understand why can't you be a man for me? for me?

empathy bleeds

V2:there's nights i can't sleep without you here by me

nights i don't sleep weeks i don't dream

loneliness takes the life from me

i see it so clear, i need to run away from here

everything's changing my worlds rearranging

and i don't feel you here